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Blame it on the music. - Spirit
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Blame it on the music.
Current Mood: lonely lonely
Current Music: Beethoven - 5th Symphony (complete)
Last time this happened, several years ago, I had ayradyss and co. to help me get through it. It wasn't so damned lonely. They where here, and even tho most of the time we just sat around, watched TV, played games...we did it together, in the same place. It was good, I felt loved, and I don't know if I can ever thank them for that. Yes, even Ryken who I'm sure hates me on principle. :)

Since then I've lost a friend or two, alienated a few more, and also don't have that safe haven anymore. I'm absorbed in a game that is a lot of fun -when- I’m doing it in a group (at least these days) but my schedule/server choices have made this...spotty. I've pondered if an alt would help that sensation, but as I can't seem to get absorbed into an alt, probably not. I'm not sure how to meet people, not that I'm overly good at it. In fact the last couple people (admittedly female) I've tried to conjure up meetings with, they've all pretty much ran in terror. =) I've pondered a hobby, but not sure what to take up. =) Maybe should go out and check the martial arts place near where I work tomorrow. Need to go out and get laundry done anyways. And while I'm at it, mental promise to self, check out gym.

And tomorrow night I plan to go out with ecchikun and quinby(happy birthday hon, even if you are a brat, I still like ya. ;) to go see Narnia. So that'll be fun assuming the theater doesn't explode or something. :)

I've got a lot of Christmas Ideas/Gifts done with, so I feel pretty good in that regard. At least being lonely and single makes one's bank account not mind if I spend money. Tho honestly if I stopped eating out as much (shush, don't mention I just ordered pizza..which just arrived. in 20 minutes. i'm impressed.) i'd have more money...but what does more money do for me if I don't have anyplace to spend it. =0

I had a point when I was starting this post, not sure what it was now. Maybe I'll just go watch a DVD that I've bought but not watched. :P

I guess the moral of this post is that I should be thankful for the things I have had. *nods sagely* there we go.
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ecchikun From: ecchikun Date: December 7th, 2005 08:28 pm (UTC) (Link)
Dude! I don't have the entertainment options M&N do, nor the comforting bosom ;), but if there's anything I can do to help you not feel lonely, let me know! DVD rentals are still reasonably cheap, dollar movies thusly so, PS2 stuff can be done, card games, anime, heck I've even got a Dreamcast that can be broken out for old school NES goodness.

Don't get into that mindset when I'm a phone call and at most 10 minutes away. Especially when it serves as an all too convenient excuse for me to get some social contact as well and not sit here moping and depressed and more passive about it.
tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: December 8th, 2005 02:55 am (UTC) (Link)
dear God, thank you.

Jeff, if you do not listen to this person and take their offer, I will personally come to Indiana and kick your ass. Got it? Don't make me get all mean and tough and stuff.


:D
wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: December 7th, 2005 11:40 pm (UTC) (Link)
explains a lot of things... cant say that i dont feel the same way but though my wallet has not been hit by a SO it has been hit by moving out =( ... and i dont think im cutting back much this year... i just love christmas ... i looooove giving gifts... and getting them .. even if ppl are difficult about it ... its much harder the further away the people are ... oh well such is life... *hugs lots of hugs*
daimones From: daimones Date: December 8th, 2005 01:24 pm (UTC) (Link)
I love giving too. =)
tyomniye From: tyomniye Date: December 8th, 2005 12:57 am (UTC) (Link)
two words if you need a break... New Mexico... :P

you're welcome to visit you know.. :)
hisdaffodil From: hisdaffodil Date: December 8th, 2005 09:59 am (UTC) (Link)
Or Kansas!

Who could be depressed whilst watching a 2 year old play Mommy polo (simplified version of Marco Polo where said child walks around the house saying "Mommy", to which Mommy answers Polo, continue for 10 minutes). Or while laying on the couch while the 2 year old feeds you "puzzles" (translation: Pretzels) until you nearly choke to death. :)

Side note: We got snow. Ugh. Lots of snow.
daimones From: daimones Date: December 8th, 2005 01:23 pm (UTC) (Link)
Personally it all sounds pretty amusing to me. Snow and all. :)
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