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I hate insomnia.
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For two days I haven't really been able to sleep, and when I do sleep, it's really fitful tossing, and turning, waking up every so often.

Needless to say this doesn't make Jeff a happy person. To say nothing of my work output....

Nor does Jeff finding out he can't really have something he really wanted. At least not -now-. (sorry dragoni82, no surprise for you.)

So what to do when you have all this? Think depressing thoughts, be annoyed that you can't sleep, etc. Write angsty (cryptic) journal entries. Read. Set more traps for mice. Attempt more sleep.

I dunno. Just. GRR.

As someone put it, I have a job that pays my bills, no overweening debt, no majorly destructive habits...so why do I feel so like I need to -fix- something about me to make me better. What is it I'm lacking? Decisiveness? A need to be responsible?

I'm tired of second guessing myself.

Or maybe I'm just tired.
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dragoni82 From: dragoni82 Date: August 28th, 2005 06:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
The board recommends hot chocolate and a fuzzy blanket for improved sleepiness.
At least, this is what they told me last time.
daimones From: daimones Date: August 29th, 2005 12:09 pm (UTC) (Link)
Sound advice.

*ponders what sort of 'board' this is* This isn't one of them ouija boards, is it? ;)
hisdaffodil From: hisdaffodil Date: August 28th, 2005 08:52 pm (UTC) (Link)
ellisande From: ellisande Date: August 28th, 2005 09:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
You always feel worse about yourself when you haven't slept enough. *huggles* Maybe you're missing the neighbors? ;)
daimones From: daimones Date: August 29th, 2005 12:08 pm (UTC) (Link)

There not here, and I can -still- blame them.

ellisande From: ellisande Date: August 30th, 2005 02:54 am (UTC) (Link)
Yes, yes you can. They got you so used to being woken up that now you do it automatically. Yeah, that's it. *kicks 'em*
annida From: annida Date: August 29th, 2005 02:57 am (UTC) (Link)
I know where you're at mate.. I've been having the same sleepless problems.. I don't know where they stem from, but a good thing to always do is attempt to find out why.. whether that is eating before going to sleep, or the fact that your pillow just isn't comfortable anymore.. Or perhaps it's even stress... *hugs*
bemocked From: bemocked Date: August 29th, 2005 08:36 am (UTC) (Link)
I hate insomnia

and i hate second guessing myself

sleep cures so much, it does - maybe you can still have what you really want soonish afterall, just a little more thinkiness about what that is and why? Re: "fixing", now if you would just be a tad more generous with yourself and spend a little bit of effort instead thinking about what you DO like about yourself...
ellisande From: ellisande Date: August 31st, 2005 03:30 am (UTC) (Link)
Yeah, what she (I hope you're a she, if not, apologies) said. You could definitely be a lot more generous with yourself. We all like you, clearly you have to have -tons- of good qualities. Maybe you just need to spend some time and see them for yourself.

leon03 From: leon03 Date: August 29th, 2005 09:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
I've been there. In fact, I had something similar happen to me this week. Quite probably for similar reasons as you.

Once in college, I had a case of insomnia where I did not sleep at all for three nights straight. I'd lay in bed, awake, for eight hours a night instead. The physical rest helped a great deal, but of course, my mind was crap. The major cause of that was depression. That was the worst, though I had plenty of one-night cases of insomnia around that time period.

Hope you feel better soon.
wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: August 29th, 2005 11:30 pm (UTC) (Link)
looks like you should have written me that e-mail....i knew it... i havent been sleeping well myself... too hot ... too cold... worrying about anything and everything... im hoping now that the first day is done with it will be better... you should call me or something...
tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: August 30th, 2005 12:25 am (UTC) (Link)
You always feel worse about yourself when you haven't slept enough.

She's right. Lack of sleep brings out the insecurity and feelings of worthlessness you normally ignore when you're rested.

You're witty, you're wonderful, and you're loved. Life doesn't get much better than that.

stop being me.
daimones From: daimones Date: August 30th, 2005 12:48 am (UTC) (Link)

It could...

But now I'm being demanding.

Which I guess means I'm not you. *runs away* ;)
tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: August 30th, 2005 01:07 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: It could...


I thought you liked it when I wasn't the one demanding....

and you were

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