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I cannot seem to sleep properly.
Current Mood: thoughtful thoughtful
Current Music: "Nyah" by Hans Zimmer / Heitor Teixeira Pereira
I sit here now, thoughts wrapped up in a blanket of lethargy, realizing that I do this only at my detriment of sleep. And I'm not sure if that sentence is even correct, but oh well. I don't think any English majors read this, though a few anally retentive grammar freaks do.

But I'm digressing.

I realize I promise entries, and they never materialize. I need to work on that. Or stop promising.

Stream of consciousness that should vaguely pertain to 'updates': I'm still as wandering as the rest of us in life. I lost my job at Roadway. Need to find another one, soon. In the meantime, I can use the extra time to get past this crunch time of procrastination and work at school getting the rest of the money they owe me. I so love that job. I want a job in my field so badly. If only I could find one. Got another mice caught. There's still one out and about. I'm thinking about borrowing my mothers kittens to go hunt it down. Never seem to have the time to do all the things I want (remember those entries?). Got another couple of books I want to read while I put Bri through the 'catch up with Jeff's book appetites'. Insomnia and disconnected still all there. School is interesting. Had fun figuring out how to use eval in php to completely get around the idea of having to write an expression parser. It's nice! A bit insecure, you computer junkies may be pointing out, but I'm not going to be using it that way, thanks. So, NumAna2 goes well. Have a midterm in Operating Systems. (I’m gonna ace it.). So that makes two classes I don't have to worry about. That only leaves me a few more that I'm not worried about, I just have to keep up the work and grades so that I don't have to worry. *snickers*

My trip to Georgia was wonderful. The weather was beautiful, and I seem to have brought it back with me to Fort Wayne. Also brought back more stuff of Bri's...managed to get her to clean!..and me too. Did some dishes, got my shit (some of it) put away and what not. I have too many damned curious, not enough shelf-space in here. But I like the busy look, as long as it's not on a 'work' surface. My shelves and incident storage are allowed to be cluttered..

Also brought back an iMac. Thought I brought back a network printer, but I was wrong. :( So, two computers, two people. Should alleviate things, I think. Kinda makes me worried though. I'm possessive of a certain someone's attentions when I want them. *smiles wryly* And I have little right, I suppose, but that doesn't stop me from feeling. Interestingly, that axiom holds true for many things...

We got a lot of interesting talk on the long drive...was good. Very.

Spring is coming and with it I can feel many things besides my desire to be constantly coupling. I have an urge to fight, which should preclude me from being in the same room, virtual or otherwise, with some people...they wouldn't survive my rushes. I have a desire to flee...to run wild. Somewhere, deep down, there is this child of the wind in me, a child that wishes only to drink in the world in a heady rush of sensation that some would term hedonism. It is this child that gives me my poetry, my passion, my other-world nature. And he wants free. Much more than usual, currently....Today I was struck by this as a response to this. It made me feel good to know I still have something..inside me.

And now I've been compiling music and whiling away the time with my beloved instead of sleeping. Damned insomnia. C'est la vie.
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zecular From: zecular Date: March 19th, 2003 07:00 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm an English major (was) AND I'm anal-retentive about grammar...

But I also know good writing when I read it - You bring people into what you're saying and that makes it worthwhile.
daimones From: daimones Date: March 19th, 2003 10:00 am (UTC) (Link)

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Thank you. =)
tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: March 19th, 2003 07:59 am (UTC) (Link)
Insomnia - did I catch it from you or did you catch it from me?

School - you rock. Now stop procrastinating before I stop in Indiana with the leather restraints and whip before heading out to PA to beat someone else.

Leather restraints, whip, and you - we'll leave that one alone...

Spring - no violence. I know you want to be a knight in shining armor, and I know that there's several of us you'd like to protect, but as for myself - this was my decision. Yes, he knows/knew exactly the right things to do and say to garner the answer he wanted, but it was still always my choice. I suggest instead you build my website because I obviously am going to keep on procrastinating and not get it back up.

You're an excellent writer. I was always pulled in by your imagination and your creativity. You are good at what you do and you're good at bringing the images in your head to life for the rest of us through the words you use.

Lack of right - you have to do what makes you happy. But should the pain get worse than the joy, bail. I should be example enough to show you that sometimes you need to cut the losses and run, no matter how badly it hurts to turn away. And if the other person does love you, they're going to want what's best for you, rather than hold on and hurt you worse.

Randomness - you are an angel. I adore you.
daimones From: daimones Date: March 19th, 2003 09:55 am (UTC) (Link)

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Leather - Fun, huh.
Spring - Can't help what sings in my blood.
Writer - Thank you. I feel...undescrptive.
Rights - *sulks* :)
Random - *preen*
minsies From: minsies Date: March 20th, 2003 04:23 am (UTC) (Link)
I'm feeling unhelpful today.

English major? Check. A general annoyance about proper grammar, also. Now, on top of it all, I know how things are supposed to be designed and printed properly. I am, I think, very trying to be around when critical.

I think whatever child is running about in my head wants to stuff marbles up its nose for attention today, or be slightly sick and stay in bed with someone to kiss her forehead and bring her soup. At least she has a chance to bury herself in the newly dried laundry, hiding in the warmth.
minsies From: minsies Date: March 20th, 2003 04:24 am (UTC) (Link)
Apparently the kidlet doesn't want to have a constant gender either. 'Its', 'her'...my, my.

No wonder I'm feeling confused.
daimones From: daimones Date: March 20th, 2003 04:29 am (UTC) (Link)

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You're sick. :) The idea of being coddled has merit. My nose has issues as well, though they're not sick issues. They're more like, 'Sinus pressure causes immense pain issues.'
minsies From: minsies Date: March 20th, 2003 04:53 am (UTC) (Link)
The dread disease has run its course, other than my nose running on occasion.

Any other connotations of the word 'sick'...well, I'll leave that up to you. q;
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