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Happy New Years. :)
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Current Music: TV New Years Stuff
Thank god.

--Bruce Balfour - Prometheus Road--

With the dying of the light comes the birth of darkness. The shattered dreams of the day are welcomed into the flowing embrace of the night, re-formed at the violet hour to face a new dawn. Memory is mixed with desire, reducing fear to a handful of dust.

http://shopdelphi.com/products/consumers/myfi/ → Portable XM radio. How f* cool is that. I want one.

http://hectorshardware.com/hectors876/po10elde.html → How cool is one of these. ;)

Open Eyes
One on One
Solid Ground
Take the Quiz and build your portrait!

You scored as True Neutral. A True Neutral person has two faces- either these people are merely apathetic, preferring to focus their minds on more important things, or these people truly believe in a balance of all things. To these people, there can be no light without some darkness. These people also have no dedication to, or intrinsic distrust of, laws.
What is your Alignment?

http://www.google.com/webhp?complete=1&hl=en → What will those smart fellows at Google think up next?

http://www.liegirls.com/index.html → This is hilarious. lakos, this is for you.

http://www.tokyoplastic.com/drummachine.html → This...hilarious. Wait until the drum part. Promise. It does come!

http://pbfb.ca/pac-mondrian/ → Pacman and art. Crazy.

"I started smoking weed when I was 15. I'm 47 now, so it's safe to say I'll be smoking when Jesus comes back. Hell, I've smoked so much weed I thought I was smoking with Jesus. Any man that can change an ounce to a pound is okay with me." -- From Bob and Tom (radio show) morning show.

http://www.mozillastore.com/products/stuff/firefoxplushtoy → Reasons why firefox is cool. You can cuddle it.

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connect to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.

You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.

Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

http://www.megatokyo.com/index.php?strip_id=653 → If only this really worked. Geeks of the world, attempt!

With that out of the way, I again don't know what all to talk about. This last year didn't work out at all how I was planned. I was a good enough boy, but not good enough to keep the lady I loved more than life itself. Last year around Christmas I gave her a ring that was meant to be a promise ring. A year, to see. Didn't even quite make it. It made Christmas incredibly hard for me, and awkward. Especially as I spent it with her and her family. It was nice, actually. I love her family. I got a castle Lego that I traded back to Toys'r'us for a gift card, that, with a promised 100 some dollars will go towards an AT-AT Lego and a PS2. I also got this nice polo sweater. It's white and fuzzy and soft. Yarm.

Sidenote: My mother is going to take me out shopping for some clothes for her gift, her cats got me a handheld poker playing thing (too bad it's so cheap) and a copy of the Swiss army knife I already have. I'm keeping the one I have for sentimental value (Hans gave it to me. I miss him. Mental note, get email address of his), but it's nice to know I have this one around at home. My g'rents got me 30 dollars worth of TGIF gift cards. My aunt got me a 'please convert to Christianity' book and a big TGIF Hurricane mixer thing. What, get me drunk and then convert? The stuff I gave to my family they all seemed to dig, except my mom who was nice and polite about it, but wasn't enthused. :) Bri's wearing her new necklace tonight, in fact. Is pretty.

Here are just a couple pics for you to look at. Sorry there aren't more. Dialup is a bitch and I gave up trying to mail myself the pictures. Why I didn't just burn myself a cd of them, I don't know. Cause I'm stupid. Hrm, what else. Well. While I was down in Atlanta, I managed to horrify Bri's mom with the very notion that I might not be around next year. I just didn't have the heart to tell them after they'd finally accepted me into their family as part of it. They even let I and Bri sleep together finally. ;) Bri's mother had this crazy cool Christmas tree that I didn't get a picture of, again, because I'm silly. Got to meet Bri's friend George, his family, and an ex of Bri's, Chad. George was really cool, I liked him. Not sure what he thought of me, but I liked him. Kinda felt left out when they (he, the ex, another friend, and Bri) were just catching up on people, but I didn't mind. But it is why I kept trying to let Bri and them hang out alone. I was just draggin' 'em down. But when we went to Dave and Buster's it was a slice of pure heaven. I wish Fort Wayne had enough people to support a place like this. OMG was it fun. I even got to play http://www.virtualworld.com/Tesla_II.shtml and I'd forgotten how much fun it was. Oh. And I got to eat at Krystal's again. YUM. The worst part of the trip was having to come back into my own apartment, away from the spotless and beautiful households and free rides given by parents glad to see their families together again. :)

Things did get cleaned some today tho. Need Bri to get her clothes cleaned up, then I think I might feel motivated enough to tackle the books/bookshelves. She did the dishes tho, or at least, most of them, and for this I thank her. It let me clean up my corner. Need to check target for wall hanging dvd racks. If not, I've a backup plan at Crate and Barrel. I even got FC3 installed on my server which I have named Hobbiton. Yay. Which reminds me, another reason this year sucked. I got fired from Sirva, a job I liked. This new Transworks job is nice, but it's not as nice as Sirva. Not even close. :P

I got to see wingedpixi this year, that means it wasn't all bad! Another reason this year wasn't all bad is that daxayl called me and wished me a Happy New Years. Not half bad, that.

The longer this entry goes on the more not good I feel, which seems to mean my entry is all depressing. Sorry folks, I have this headache, and my stomach didn't like what I ate, I guess.

OH. I got addicted to tea this year. ;) I'm not a tea snob, I just dig it.

So here's to Next Year, the hopes of a career, mental health, physical well-being, and maybe even more journal writing. :) (and maybe some nice new journal layouts!)
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tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: January 1st, 2005 09:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
Don't look back at last year and despair. Remember that you're supposed to use the past as a marker as you head off in a new direction. It's a journal of your past year's steps and it's only natural that some of those steps took you through rocky and barren paths.

You say you 'lost the love of your life' but if you'll think about it, you really didn't. There are privacy and personal issues that I won't go into here because of discussions between just you and I, but it had not been idyllic for a while. You just chose to close your eyes and ignore what you knew to be true. It wasn't until it slapped you in the face that you had to say it existed. I love you, but I will not let you be depressed over an imaginary marker in your life. Perhaps it's because I love you that I won't. Same diff? And by the way, it doesn't make you nor Bri bad people. It just means that you don't really belong together for a lifetime. But you both have learned what you do and do not want in a lifetime partner and this is always a good thing.

As for Bri's family, let it be where it is. If you are not there next year, you're not there. Why worry about something that's a whole year away? I still do things with Sharelle and her family, yet we've not been together as a couple for almost four years now. Friendships can transcend breakups, it's just hard and awkward work.

As for the other stuff, life happens when you least expect it. Use those horrible times for character checks and internal growth and be proud of the way you handled each crisis and let-down. You survived them and you kept your sense of humor intact, if not exactly all your sanity (it's overrated anyway).

Think of the good things you did for others, because I don't see a single one of those up there. The times you were there for your friends in the middle of the night, during their crisis, and you shored their faith in themselves and in the hope that things would turn out alright. You made people smile when they felt they had nothing to smile about and you loved them when they felt so unlovable. You took a not great relationship and you're translating it into a good friendship for life. You read books, you got a degree, you celebrated life with friends and family. You watched amazing sunsets and you were blessed with rain upon your skin. You were loved.

Besides, you had me for a friend and is there anything else more wonderful than that???? I think not!

wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: January 2nd, 2005 04:08 am (UTC) (Link)
shes right you know... and i do know you know she is... so listen will you..... it was a good year...... just not with the possibly grand finally we might have hoped for ourselves.... but in honesty we know its better that way .... its maybe not easy now and possbily wont be for a while.. but i mean give it time... i know you have listened to me whine for a while about my ex.. and more recently this past week but i cant tell you over this last week or so how mucht hings have gotten better and more resolved to me ...... anyway this wasnt supose to be about that... cout your blesseings... thats what you need to do because i know that they are many .... good friends.... and you do have them and even more have a great friend in you .... even if we might not always be the best of friends to you when you need us.... will work harder i promise...
you got to visit more than me ... i swear you did .. there was a uncle and didn you get to see the lady above as well... but i am really flattered that i got a metion in the entry... depressed though you were about the whole thing =P.... and i know you went to a wedding ... or sworn.. and wedding are happy things ...... even if they arent yours.... and you went to a ren fair too i thought... and you sent me satin pjs... that is wayexciting..... and you graduated... you have a wonderful piece of paper saying to the world so .... thats huge ... huge... and you had a really good thanksgiving with friend and family... lots of family you had fun with w'hich is not been the norm in the past... these are all great things... andi know that there were more i was not ever privy to ... its just one trip around the sun... you have so many more in front of you
i thought so much more when i was reading but it left my brain when i attempted to type.. something about markers and how to gauge yourself in the next year... but i lost that one.. i mean i think its right but my wit has left on that train of thought...
i wish
well we have a dave and busters too so i dont know why ft wayne cant have one.. personally i dont care much for it... i mean the food is pretty good i supose.. but the game thing eludes me ... but im not really into that kinda thing anyway ... but anytime you wanna go and knock yourself out be my guest...
just know that this year you my dear have been a most wonderful friend better than i could have ever asked for or expected... having a good friend to share your burden a bit not only makes it seem a bit less heavy but most time makes it non-existant.... or at the very least gives you a different perspective to bring the situation back to reality ... or at least offer to beat ppl over the head and call them dirty names
you need to be good to yourself... i need you to promise me that ... and that and order...
tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: January 2nd, 2005 04:41 am (UTC) (Link)
amen pixie darlin'. If he'd listen to us, his life would be oh so much better, wouldn't it? :)
wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: January 2nd, 2005 11:49 pm (UTC) (Link)
he does .. i swear he does.... sometimes the info just needs to stew for a bit .... it just needs to keep getting better...... so heres to all the potential of 2005
wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: January 3rd, 2005 03:02 am (UTC) (Link)
ps. dont get ther crate and barrel thing... so much better ways to store your cds and that also collect less dust .. umm yeah want sugestions ask..
daimones From: daimones Date: January 3rd, 2005 12:52 pm (UTC) (Link)

Not storing CD's.

DVD's, and too late.
wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: January 3rd, 2005 04:21 pm (UTC) (Link)

Re: Not storing CD's.

doh ... on both accounts
daimones From: daimones Date: January 4th, 2005 12:56 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Not storing CD's.

What would you suggest?
wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: January 4th, 2005 01:17 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Not storing CD's.

there are modular cube things that you can hang on the wall that look nicer plus let you put the dvds/cds stacked together so that they collect less dust then wehn they are seperated by those wire racks... which use to think i liked... plus you can put other things in them besides dvds should you decicde to put the dvds in a drawer or something later on ... i forget who has em ... either ikea or potery barn ... it doesnt matter might be more than the other rack so i dont know that its really worth it .. just thoughts thats all... had other ideas too but cant remember atm ..
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