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Current Mood: thoughtful thoughtful
Current Music: The movie: Something to talk about.
Anyways. I apologize to the gaming group, as once again, I don't think anybody got told of our not going to be around'ness. We're down in Atlanta.

I don't know why I enjoy it down here so much, I really don't. Maybe because it's a vacation, maybe because it's someplace where I don't have to take care of everything...I don't know. I offer to help, but so far all I've been able to do is chauffeur their car. Which is nice, cause I love driving their Vue (Saturn's SUV). I know this makes me a bastard, but it's still cool. I've come to the conclusion that I'm too practical to ever buy a non-fuel efficient car. On the other hand, I would love to have a Humvee. :) Damn my American Dream tendencies!

A short note: This is the most charged political campaign that I can remember in quite some time (though to be fair to those older than I, I can really only remember 4?). I won't say where I stand, though anyone who knows me knows. But I will quote a dispatcher who said the greatest thing when I was talking to her. "First it was the Republicans. Now it's the Democrats. Nobody cares. I don't care who they are, under God, get them out of here." Now she meant because they're fucking up traffic and package delivery, but I can't agree more with the sentiment.

No quotes this time around, mostly cause I'm on dialup that will only get 26.4, no matter what number I tell it to use amongst the numbers MSN provides. It's a f* conspiracy, I'm sure. And because of this restriction, I've already closed out of my email and don't have the fortitude to go open it again. Instead, just some thoughts.

Why can't I shut me off? Maybe it's the movie I'm watching, I don't know. Is it right to see the stars in the crook of a finger? Or the lack thereof...is it right to enjoy just sitting in the sun, eyes drifting into the little slit of water that's a window into a crystal clear pool, mostly covered by a dirty pool cover? It's peaceful and entirely not useful. =)

On the other hand, I've been enjoying shopping. I was at a petstore and I saw that you can buy emperor scorpions for $15. And I thought to myself: I want one. Snakes and scorpions and little green darty lizards. And cats and dolphins! Course, then later that day we saw a particularly gross segment of Whose Line Is It Anways where there were people being covered by bugs..and I think it was there I saw this little waif of an oriental girl covered in scorpions...she was even taking one in the mouth and I thought to myself: Damn. That's sexy.

I don't know where I'm going with this, or even if there's anywhere to go. maybe just a chronicle of my time so far here spent. I want to at least see Cindy while I'm here, who knows how that will go. Feels like the equation must balance to 0, right? :)

Blah. Shoulda stuck to talking about the pool and the Vue. (a subtle pun, pardon.) I'm tired of depressing people, tired of angering people, tired of disappointing them. Apparently amongst my friends, my grumpyness, unhappiness, and such are things of legend. Of course they all still love me (which is nice and right and proper, huzzah!) but they don't tell me about my obvious character flaws. I need to make myself better, obviously. Cept I'm not even certain where to do that. Curmedgeoncritic.com is a great thing to be funny about, even *gasp* critical, but it shouldn't be a way of life that makes people afraid of me. Afraid of telling me the truth...

So. Off to staring at little blue slivers of water, driving neat cars, and relaxing. By god I've earned it! Hell. I'd rather talk about politics than blither on depressingly. Maybe Bri's dad can use some help outside, a place I've always loved.

Things I have not done this summer that I wanted to do: Cedar Pointe, (camping, canoing, caving). Anyone care to help me redress these wrongs before all time is lost? :)

Everything, really, is good. I just think too much. And most of the times I love it, but part of the reason I love being outdoors and active is that it doesn't leave much room for anything other than the activity. Becoming lost in it. It's so nice. I need a factory job. :)

Or a job in Hawai. Now that couldn't be all bad, could it? :)

(edit: Check out http://daimones.livejournal.com and see what I've done to the place. Not much, but the little things I hope put some shine on it.)
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tyomniye From: tyomniye Date: September 5th, 2004 09:47 am (UTC) (Link)
why don't people point out character flaws? so many reasons... they don't want to argue, they don't want to start a fight or grudge-match that will fester until it explodes leaving the friendship in a state where it needs much more than a band-aid to fix... but that's also how relationships grow. Honesty hurts. But sometimes (more often I would say) deception or covering things up hurts more in the end. We don't want to hear what's wrong with us, but we need to. We just need people who know us well enough & are brave enough to take the risk of telling us. Then do something about it. That's the hard part. I think most people have things they are infamous for. Some of them are characteristics which are so much part of us that they'll never be completely fixed. What we need to determine & what we will actually make progress on... once someone's told us about it. If they do. *snugs*
eduthepenguin From: eduthepenguin Date: September 6th, 2004 09:09 am (UTC) (Link)
My sister's just returned from a 5-month stay at Hawaii. Just felt like adding this, vis-a-vis your penultimate comment :P.

And I like your layout. Very... minimalist ^_^. Of course, looking at your code, all of the real customizations are right beneath the surface :).

(and also... FRIENDED! ^_^)
daimones From: daimones Date: September 8th, 2004 01:38 pm (UTC) (Link)
I like minimal, but I didn't think my journal quite qualified. :) Thanks!
vacillate From: vacillate Date: September 7th, 2004 08:05 am (UTC) (Link)
Whatever the equation, you made it!

It was sooooo great to see you, hon.

I missed you. :)

daimones From: daimones Date: September 8th, 2004 12:56 pm (UTC) (Link)
*chuckles, hugs* I missed you dear.
wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: September 9th, 2004 08:32 am (UTC) (Link)
I saw this little waif of an oriental girl covered in scorpions...she was even taking one in the mouth and I thought to myself: Damn. That's sexy.
Its appauling not sexy. One i cant believe that this was who's line... sounds more like fear factor... which is so dumb.. let me go break my neck cause i just might get some money ... there is nothing attractive or sexy about being stung with posion...
. On the other hand, I would love to have a Humvee.
Orsh... no wonder ppl think americans are over enduldgent and excessive... what is with the compulsion to want a humvee..... they werent built or designed for everyday travle.. they dont really fit in parking spaces... no luck of the oterh car surviging an accident... and its not like people are acutally going out and using the thing for what it was designed... if you want a showy staus symbol get a plasma screen tv and then not everyone has to look at it... or try and pass you in traffic.... humvee owners at least around here are the biggest road hogs...
but they don't tell me about my obvious character flaws.
maybe they are not obvious character flaws... i mean what if they dont see them as such... or even see them at all..... could be that they only see half of who you are because thats all that you show them... its like dating .. you cant show all of yourself to the person on the first date... one what fun would that be but two ... they might not like it ..... to forward too fast ... that kinda thing... i think that at least for me theres a security level that needs to be reached before they can see what i think are flaws as such.... and something like i said perception is skewed .. so what you consider a flaw they do not ... might even atribute it to part of your charm.. but if you make them aware that you dont like that particular trait.. they can then point it out to you and help you correct that if thats how you want to handle it... and i do too think that you do have friends enough that will stop you and tell you when your being a complete ass so i dont think you have to worry about that so much..

that was a lot and i guess some of it was me being mean and venting ... i still love ya and stuff.. hope the rest of the trip was good



daimones From: daimones Date: September 10th, 2004 06:23 am (UTC) (Link)

Yeesh.

Girl: Confidence = Sexy. Wasn't thinking about all the other stuff. People do weird stuff all the time, it's their perogative.

Car: Just like driving big, capable, responsive cars. I did say I never would get one. But it'd be neat to have one. Just like it'd be neat to take a flight in a shuttle. :P

And thanks for the rest. *snuggles* And other than the tree and my car becoming closer than they should have, t'was nice. I'm waiting to stop peeling though. It itches. :)
wingedpixi From: wingedpixi Date: September 10th, 2004 06:29 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Yeesh.

Girl: confidence does =sexy i would agree... but i dont think there anything confident about putting your self at risk for shits and giggles...

Car: hell id like to drive a hummer too not that i could but i dont want to own one thats the difference.... love to go in a shuttle as well.. we all have dreams... but do they always have to be dreams of owner ship ... cause the there are factors preventing you from owning it... space. money to buy it money to fule it ect... but not the lack of desire to have it as your own

hands youa bottle of aloe for your peel-y-ness.... hope it gets better glad you had a good time

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