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The Ultimate LiveJournal Obsession Test
CategoryYour ScoreAverage LJer
Community Attachment36.56%
There's something special about you. Every once in awhile, one of your topics gets everyone chatting.
28.16%
MemeSheepage70.18%
I am but one quiz among millions. My brethren surround me on the page.
32.09%
Original Content61.29%
Using LiveJournal to express a few strong opinions
43.3%
Psychodrama Quotient26.51%
Known to go off without warning
17.58%
Attention Whoring40.91%
You'd sell your mother for another three friends
23.75%
Your LiveJournal Obsession Number is:
21111
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"Perhaps we should call this bill the 'This Time We Really Mean It Act' to cure any misunderstanding in the judicial branch." -- REPRESENTATIVE BILLY TAUZIN

See, I'm evil. I bet you thought you were getting details.

There are times when I don't know anything about myself anymore. Even worse, I realize I don't know anything about anyone. Where everything I thought I knew seems to be a lie woven into the fabric. I'm afraid to sleep, sometimes, afraid to see what lies beneath.

And I realize that this isn't helping. I'm sick and tired and scared and lonely and frustrated and overwhelmed. All I can do is carry on. All I want to do is give up.
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From: (Anonymous) Date: September 30th, 2003 04:16 am (UTC) (Link)

death and other randomness

im gonna rant a bit and then get to my point

this weekend my building manager at work died. Well really he died on thursday but no one found him untill sunday when he didnt show up to go to the football game in the city. He was young only 36 but in the last two years i have been here he has aged so much he almost had a full head of grey hair. He died from high blood pressure. When he got married 14 years earlier his new wife was diagnosed with crones disease. She is terminaly ill yet she has out lived him a seemingly healthy man. Whats worse was that she was not the nices of ppl and he was one of the most worthy men i have met recently. He had plans to divorse her in fact they were in the middle of the process. But he had not had time to change things like his insurance coverage and the like so that his mother or anyone else would recieve any inharatance. the divorse was because she was terminaly ill as he was more than well prepared to provide for her medically and finacially but more so that he could move on with his life. But His life was stolen all too soon. No one found him not because no one cared or didnt think to ask where he was but he had planed a lone fishing trip for friday and was not expected to be anywhere until Sunday afternoon. By then nothing could be.

I cant even comprehend why the world works they way it does. I cant understand why bad things happen to good people. I dont begin to try to understand others pain and loss. I can only relate what I know. I know that life is hard. That there is a thin thin line between living carefree and careless but there is a vast difference between the two. i know that for me at least it seems that all the good gets overshadowed too easily by the bad.

Life is unexpected. It is full of awe. You can trust that each moment will be different from your first to the last never to repeat itself. Do not strive to recreat the past you can never go back. Do strive to create happiness and more inmortantly fulfillmet, those are what matters most. You can not change others just as you can not change the past, they both can only be what they are. Accept this and know that you are your greatest work take heart and pride in that.

So be fustrated it will lead to change. Be overwhelmed and scared it can lead to motovation. As for sick and tired chicken soup, rest and good hug cant hurt. But take heart and never be lonely for I know if nothing else you have a friend in me should you have need or want of comfort.

~pixi
tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: September 30th, 2003 05:26 am (UTC) (Link)
you know where to find me too. Remember that pathway goes two directions, ok?
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