So. Firefest. Went down there with Matt and nykki. Let Bri go talk with N&M without me while I played with frisbee. Found out that I did not feel very good at all. Instead of passing out, went into cabin to feel better. the place is beautiful, really. Not just the cabin, all of it. The lake, the grounds..hell. All of it. Found a perfect secluded little makeout spot. Couldn’t convince Bri. ;) (course, that was the morning after.) Tried not to be in a foul mood, settled on introvert. Met a few people that seemed pretty interesting..well..everyone was mostly interesting, just that I only got around to really 'meeting' a few. Ate much brats, felt much better. Told Bri to go and socialize, cause I was being an introvert, so watched her flit about and enjoy it. She's such a beautiful butterfly who doesn't get out enough. Eventually, the time we all had been waiting for arrived. Firework time. *dadadum* We had been setting off little crap..well..they had been..for a while, but when night hit..it was all a new story. Speaking of, I should go see if the ritual lighting of the bonfire got caught on tape that has been uploaded...Nope. not yet, anyways. So. We go out to our spot by the pond, pour much fluid on the bonfire...and then lit it. The expanding ring of gasoline light that flared was the *coolest* thing. Even if it did make us all jump back..and for the first ten minutes or so, getting close to that thing was painful. :) That's where I hung out most of the night in a comfy camping chair, near the bonfire. Perfectly silhouetted between the moon, the pond, and the area where the fireworks were going off in the sky. It was loverly. In case anyone caress, click here for pictures and such. (this is not the site that should have the video, that's another place.) These were pictures that n took with her neat new digicam. I like it. I want it. *wants* In fact, the pretty fire/moon pictures I took with it. I took some of the water ones too, but it did leave something to be desired. Not quite is the digicam as cool as the 35mm. The fireworks lasted for like, 2+ hours, till 11. At one point, there was someone nearby who attempted to keep up with the cool pyros we have in our group..they failed. Miserably. So neeeeener. We can blow things up better than you! After the works, we gathered round the bonfire, people slowly drifting off to sleep either there or moving to the cabin. N&M and I and Bri left after we finished up a game of euchre. We were attempting to teach Bri, but she would have rather socialized, so she left, and I played. Upon arriving back in Fort Wayne, Bri wanted to back. I guess I keep her locked up. So, since I couldn't say no to a Bri who was depressed about it, I took her back at no extra charge. :) Nobody was awake when we got there, so we wandered around (re the make out spot) and then rather than go inside, we curled up in the car. When Bri got bit by this huge ass horsefly of dooooom, we said fuck that, and went inside. People were starting to stir, so more fun. The first part of this day was spent in socializing and 'cleaning'. More of the first than the second, though we got as much of the second done as possible. Found out that property Firefest was taking place at had been on sale in the past and might come up for sale in the future for like..400k. I want it soooooo bad. It comes with a cabin and a mansion and a lake/pond...and...spiffoness! Course, it being in a remote southbend location is a downfall. not to mention the price and upkeep..but...hell. Come on. 400k, plus another 1 mil to get the place up to spec...pocket change. ;P After getting the place cleaned up, we went to Jo's place, cause Bri had never been. She liked it there too, but I was getting tired. So rather than make her drive home I stole a bed in Jo's cool ass little house (I *LOVE* Jo's place.) while they (Jo, Beaker (her boy), Dan, and Mike) went out to eat and to try and get Mike to the train station. Dan is cool. Bri likes Jo's animals, and to be fair, they're cute, though I don't care so much about the hoppities. I just want my kitties to be as nice and good natured and affectionate as Bella is. Had surly and mean dreams. Had to come downstairs at some point and turn off the loud metallica they had left on...maybe that was the cause, maybe because I was tired of being so .. tired and left out. But at that point, I'd been up for 36 hours with 2 hours of sleep somewhere in there...I was just tireed. Long drives....anyways. They get back, and Bri said she was gonna drive home..but I did, cause she passed out.
Paragraph break because I just want to say that the death of gimme cats in FF are soooo cute. They flop over. And they go gragh! and hack up hairballs at you. It's so funny.
It was nice to get home, when we did, though I still need to tac nuke the place. It was nice to meet the few people that I did. (Dan, dan^2?, and people whose names I don't remember but are still cool.) It was really nice to get to hang out with Jo again. Miss her. It was funny, she had a Dawn comic in the back of her car and I flipped through it...when she got home, she tried to show me her dawn collection (which I should have taken her up on to see if there was anything new in there...) and I was like, 'I've seen it. It's how we met.' She had forgotten that Dawn brought us together. *snickers* Or something like that. I was in N's dorm bed, N was with her boy, and Jo was in her dorm bed, and she's looking at these comics...
Hell, the ambience of the entire Firefest was cool. I mean, don't get me wrong. I adored the people, the atmosphere, the things I Got to do. (though I'm sorry for being so ... offset?... I really don't think I should be around people most of the time...) the fireworks...but out of all of it, it was merely being outdoors, the heat of the bonfire on my flesh, the sound of the night and of nature singing in my blood, the moon high above me...I wanted to be properly equipped to go wandering, and just..get to know the place. Even better than the short wander I got with Bri in the morning.
So that was firefest, I think. Big BadaBoom. Was Good.
This week they changed my schedule at work, which sucked much ass. I've been so tired...haven't got anything clean, this weekend I *wanted* to clean, but I want to see movies with Bri, shopping...want to go do the Three Rivers Festival. Specially midway. I don't think I can get bands that make it cheap, but a few choice rides and food I can do. Been playing much FF. Been trying to not let my isolation float over to Bri and land on her back unfairly, not sure if I'm succeeding.
Then, to top it off, weirdness with Liz. (ex-gf) I mean. It was weirdness that started the whole thing, this I will admit. Icons on Bri's journal that share icons that Liz has used for years. I even told Bri about it when I saw it. But to hurt people's feelings t'was not meant to do. I didn't even think much of it till Liz asked me to ask Bri to change it out of respect for her? As predictable, things devolved, and nobody's happy at me.
And that's it. I think. Tired. Worn out. Making it. Goodnight.