Which is true. I am and can be. I'm strong willed, opinionated, a perfectionist, etc.
I realize that being this to your boss who is, honestly, a nice guy, laid back in general, and willing to listen to VALID points about procedure laid out in a coherent way is not the smartest thing. Especially in 'public' (does a cubicle section count?).
So, he hauled me into his office and made me feel like shit about it. He had the right to. I was out of line. I can admit that.
Tho that mean part of me wanted to tell him that I didn't realize that being a customer service rep meant sacrificing you know, SERVICE, so that he can look 'good' by having a 'low number' compared to 'other department managers'. I wasn't aware we were competing against, oh, the guys who handle bugs in the god damn software. FUNNY that they have the most tickets in the company. I mean. You know. We are a software development house. Or even against the infrastructure guys who really don't have that many tickets. Cause they've done their god damn job and see, the nice thing about infrastructure is that once it's in place, it's, uh. infa. But hell, if we're competing, fine.
Note that JUST LIKE I TOLD YOU BEFORE THE WHOLE ARGUMENT STARTED. I Got all the work done. Sorry for having big numbers on your spreadsheet for less than 6 hours (on a report might I add that NOBODY GIVES A DAMN ABOUT. I have the email to prove it). Next time I'll make sure not to do my job and make you look good instead. Fuck your god damn procedures that don't make sense and get in the way of us doing our job...Let's do our JOB.
See, look at me. I'm doing it already. :(
I still barely said a word to anyone and am glad I'm home and just wanna curl up and feel better and not have to come into work and have time to eat decently and see some of the neat people in my life and ponder the death of a guy my age who I knew via gaming and read a magazine and do my dishes and buy gifts for people who deserve it and OH I DON'T know.