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Current Music: French Kiss
http://www.petekrawczyk.com/lj_connect/

http://www.grendel.org/milgeek/archives/i1/geekporn.html

And an amusing quote.

And there is Andrew Horbachevsky, the 44-year-old manufacturing director, who has worked for Steinway for 15 years. "This company kind of sucks you in," he said. "I've had a dream where my wife turned into a piano."


My weekend started out good. RP was as usual fun. Saturday was fun for everyone. I spent all day playing boardgames with Bri and doing nothing else of note. She beat me at scrabble! Anyways. Today I woke up, mowed the front lawn of my g'rents. Spent some time looking for chess code, cause I wanted to add it to Arcana. Figured I'd actually do Useful Code before I did that tho. Then I came home. Naked. Don't ask. :) Bri cooked me some tasty stuffing/pork chops.

Then everything went to hell. I swear to you, before God, there is something -wrong- with me.

I began to snipe, feel slighted where slight was not intended, and feel in general, that once again it was all my fault and no-one elses.

I don't know iffen my friends will want to see me any time soon. I don't know if I can be trusted to be part of the human race.

I still want to cry. I want to sleep..wake up. Find out its not all my fault, that I'm not a complete idiot. That I'm not broken. That I feel like I can fix things.

How can I do this to those that I love. What sort of person does that make me?
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tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: May 11th, 2003 10:32 pm (UTC) (Link)
It makes you human jeff. Not superman, not the tower of strength you like to pretend you are, just human. Oh, I know you'll rail and talk about the frailty of life and your emotional outburtsts or whatever, but I also know inside of you that you demand something more from yourself. Why do you understand me so well? Because in this we are two of a kind. We want to be everyone else's shoulder, but we won't let anyone else be ours, even though we really want them too. And when we're put under great stress like you've been lately, we start showing cracks in the armor.

You're not broken, you've only put in a few wrinkles for character. You can fix things. You will find a way. An apology usually is a good start. Your friends will understand and love you, thanking you for the apology. Those who don't, it will hurt, but you will survive. And we only hurt those who love us and those we love. We can't strike out against the things that we need/want to strike out against, so we strike the ones who will let us strike them and love us anyway. *hugs you oh so tightly* it'll be ok. it may not be like it once was, but it will be ok.
melydia From: melydia Date: May 12th, 2003 07:39 am (UTC) (Link)
1. that geek porn is just disturbing.
2. the lj 6degrees thingy is awesome.
3. apologies usually work best for fixing things. that and time. not that i have any fucking clue what's going on in your life because you NEVER TELL ME ANYTHING. :P
daimones From: daimones Date: May 12th, 2003 10:12 am (UTC) (Link)

Re:

I'll be around more this summer. *smiles*

As for #2, I just want to know the code behind it. S'cool! *hrm* I should test my 3 degrees to LJ porn on that thing...
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