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But oh, to be free... - Spirit
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But oh, to be free...
Current Mood: restless restless
Current Location: Work, gorram.
I didn't sleep well today; I blame that on the storm. I could feel it in the air, the electricity of it...it kept me awake, edgy. Every little noise and thing startled me when I was awake, and when I was sleeping, I was restless. I have impressions, like a fleeting afterimage, of me staring at my pillow and listening to the rain; of wanting nothing more than to have a bit of peace...

We'll also say for the record that everyone calling me (all 3 of you, really) right as I was finally getting comfy in the stages of falling asleep didn't help much! On the downside, none of the business related calls I need to have happen have come in yet. I'll go beat people's heads in if I don't hear by the end of the week. Back to the narrative at hand.

When I finally was dragged from consciousness by the phone (hrm) and showered, shaved, etc, and on my way to work...I realized I actually really want to take a car trip. I want to stretch her legs a bit, and I miss being out in unfamiliar territory. But the wanderlust can also be blamed on the storm...

There's something about them, something that thrills. It's not just the storm either. It's the entire cycle. I sit here at work and can't really concentrate (good thing there's not much to do tonight) and I keep looking out at the window at the sheen of wet on the world and remembering the smell of it, the feel of the air on my skin both as I drove and as I walked and how the world seems so much more right in moments like these than it normally does.

(Aside: WTB wireless connection and company laptop/phone connections so I can do my job from the pond or something. ;)

I was walking through work to get something I printed when someone's screen saver caught my attention. It had pictures of various places all over the world and I just stood and watched the entire cycle, marveling. I've made mention here in this journal about the scale of the universe and how it humbles and awes but also how our knowledge and views of it can be thought of as a great triumph of our very natures. That it can signify all the greatness we can accomplish and all the beauty we can muster in the simple observance of our own world. But why go so far as the universe? From coastal skyscrapers, the night sky forgotten under the blaze of electric lights and flashing neon caught single stroke by the eye of a photographer to the grandeur of a cliff covered in a greenery that has no hand of man attached...There is awe here too.

The world as I know it is still now, the wind has died down, and the wet lays heavy on the selfsame world. But inside I'm not still, as if the wind still is inside me, the smell driving some part of me to distraction. It's speaking to me, even if I'm not entirely sure what it is saying.

Maybe it's just saying that there's more need to my soul than this technological construct I've given it. Maybe that's it. But I hope I find out. And when I do? I bet I'll find this smell right there along with it.
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tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: May 9th, 2007 07:47 pm (UTC) (Link)
Maybe it's just saying that there's more need to my soul than this technological construct I've given it.

Truer words were never spoken. Our jobs are filled with technical stuff (granted, in different fields) and soul-leeching events, one after the other. Our family obligations often batter us and leave us with a less than happy feeling. Is it any wonder then that we seek things such as rain to wash all of that way and to leave us recharged and refreshed, much like rain does a arid domain? There's just something wonderful and totally peaceful about standing in the rain and letting it flow over you and through you. I am lucky in that I get to indulge in it more than you, which may be part of the reason that I'm more at peace living here than I was back home. When the need is strong enough, I drive in the rain to one of the local beaches and I just sit there, letting the rain cover me from the outside, while nature and the ocean do the work inside. Since few people are as insane as I am, I often have it all to myself and the silence is so perfect that it seems almost sacriligous to break it by even breathing. As much as I know everyone loves our perfect summer weather up here, my soul always seems to find peace in the rainy days.

as for stretching her legs, I can't think of a better stretch than a 3000 mile trip :) Seriously, go throw a dart at a map and drive there. You never know what you'll find getting there or once there. Life's a grand adventure, what are you waiting on?
daimones From: daimones Date: May 9th, 2007 10:29 pm (UTC) (Link)

Since we're doing the cliche bit...

Life's a grand adventure, what are you waiting on?

I'm thinkin' Arby's? :)
tangled_rhythms From: tangled_rhythms Date: May 10th, 2007 12:49 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: Since we're doing the cliche bit...

I like Arby's. Want to go have dinner with me? I'm buying ;)
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