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Current Mood: nostalgic nostalgic
So, I got a leather vest for Christmas. My initial response is, 'now i need to buy chaps and a harley.' For some of you may remember my less sedate days where I actually wore leather pants. Can't lie, I wanted to break them out, (i'd have to get shoes to fit tho again but yes they still fit!), put on my vinyl shirts with leather studs and wrap myself up in a leather vest and adorn myself in black shades.

Later when I was putting it away, I put it on over the sweater and button down I was wearing and laughed. :P Does look pretty good with jeans. Not sure what even would fit that combo that I may attend. I'm sure I'll figure it out.

Leather smells good. When did I get (more) boring. ;)

P.S. I got legos.
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Ressurection?
Current Mood: nostalgic nostalgic
Today was fubar fnar and on top of me being just getting over a nasty 3 day upper respiratory infection that sidelined my wedding anniversary trip plans and ate into my vacation, I just about couldn't handle it. I lost my temper for the first time in a while and it was...unpleasant. Also, seriously 6 hours to procure a Christmas tree? F that.

Future self: You deliberately didn't write down what made you mad today bc you don't want to remember in the future. It was spouse related. It was nothing. It was both of your faults.

It's days like today that make me miss WoW for the nights that follow. I miss the socialization of the game while I can mindlessly grind away at some task for some purpose. Especially since sleep seems unlikely. I could play D3, I suppose, but I've never figured out how to do the multiplayer part of that game. Reasons I play D3, I can play it in 30m increments. A trick I never did figure out w WoW. :)

In unrelated news. Seriously.

I put together my wife's new computer and finally got it up and running. I decommissioned the system I bought in 2008. Pretty decent really, a few days over 6 years. It was the last system I had that had an IDE controller, so after I used it to look through the old IDE drives I still had (they had nothing on them of note so I got rid of them), I began to tear it down into a small pile of 'keep' and a bigger pile of 'recycle' and a small pile of 'sell/trash?'. It was also the last system I had that I and Joe directly collaborated on. I found myself getting nostalgic remembering our friendship. Some highlights: WoW - tbf, he didn't get me started, that I did bc of Bri/nykkit/Matt, but he got me into raiding which is what sunk it's dirty little teeth into me and didn't let go for 9 years. ;), computer building - he taught me what to look out for and reliable sources to find information for the heavy lifting I can't do myself, a love of random late night runs to ihop, and he even helped me pick out my first car. Our friendship didn't survive, but it was truly one of the few adult male friendships I've had - all my other 'guy' friends were pre 18 - and oddly enough I felt bad throwing away the machine bits that remained. I'm a nostalgic kinda of guy? I know very recently he lost his job and I hope he manages to land feet down and running.

Future self: So Watts sent you that message on facebook. How'd that turn out? You better not have been a pansy and not told Lisa.
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From a Time article.
So where do you fall on the evolutionary debate?
I have trouble with orthodoxy in any form. I fell, having studied the 19th century evolutionary debate, a newfound sympathy for the pain that this discovery brought to people who, prior to Darwin, would have happily called themselves men of science and men of God. We now have a world full of scientists who have no faith and the faithful who have no reason, and that's a great loss for all of us.
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#45 animals are delicious.
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Hi. More S2 nonsense that i feel the need to share.
Current Mood: creative creative
Current Music: G&R Paradise City
So I use lj as my journal/syndicate reader. I'm very fond of my style, but it's not perfect, and hell, it's not even up to date anymore. But it does what I need. Warning, small geek quotient ahead: A 'quirk' of my snazzy links was that because a table was a block level element, if the link was contained within an inline element, such as a paragraph tab, it would created a newline when rendering. Very obnoxious, but fixing it was...beyond my css skills and honestly w/o javascript, I'm not sure it was fixable. So I lived - generally it only affected my syndicated links. Used to be back in the day I would pay attention to things like CSS support in browsers because I still believed I would get to use them professionally someday. (nope. not bitter. Hint, I'm whinging.) That day has long since passed. If it hadn't, I would have been alerted to the advent of the box-radius property sooner. I came across it randomly and a lightbulb went off. Long story short, I was able to replace a metric ton of code, the bulk of which is a complicated table like the above reference link mentions with some css.

display:inline-table;
background:$*header_bgcolor;
border-spacing:3px;
border:1px solid $headerPlus3;
-webkit-border-radius:5px;
-moz-border-radius:5px;
border-radius:5px;
box-shadow:0px 0px 0px 1px $headerMinus5;
font-size:95%;

I love technology. And no obnoxious line breaks!

Reality update: Work proceeds. Looking for better, need to be able to support family++ (groceries, car maintenance, vet bills, wishing for monies for schooling, hell I'd like to retire, maybe even own my own home someday?). Really want to get my wife through her degree first since it'll realize higher returns immediately. My wife is having health issues related to blood pressure and fainting. Our respective mothers are still insane, tho I think hers is worse. Maybe filial duty, i have no idea. Her brother is getting kicked out of where he's at and has no place to live. We still haven't done 2012 taxes. Thankful that of all the above crazy, at least the insurance and health spending portion as relates to monies is taken care of via work at this time.

Spending my mental energy to figure out a tiny display problem may seem trivial in the face of all that, but it still makes me happy. God help me. I'm going to eat me a pb&j. Take it away G&R.
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Oh S2, I've missed you.
My journal was breaking when certain communities would post. More accurately, a self written function used to produce my spiffy links would not terminate because it was badly written. :P So I found someone else's function and used it instead. Very similarly written, which makes me happy...amused that old me never realized the terrible condition that would cause my old function to fail. Anyways. Problem fixed. While I was there, I even fixed one other minor display error. When I first setup my LJ, the idea of having a 24" monitor was...absurd. =)

So, today, for the first time in god knows how long...I fiddled with my LJ layout. I miss S2, or more accurately, I miss the problem solving part of coding. Even if in the scheme of things, this was a tiny thing, it felt nice. I even got to use the coders, 'enh, that's good enough' clause - I realized that it's been long enough that they've changed a lot of the linkbar stuff (the buttons that let you edit, track, etc. Maybe just text links on your layout, who knows) and I'm not sure if the hacked function I have properly lets all the new stuff work. But honestly, you know how often I use those? Yeah. That's what I thought too.

It was a pleasant way to waste an hour. Maybe 2. :) Very nostalgic.
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Is this thing still on?
Current Mood: chipper chipper
So, I wanted to post a few things after reading back through some old entries. A) My first page spans more than a year and b) My life is much different now.

I still live at home with my grandmother and my mother. My wife (hey I got married - if you didn't know, and want pics, you clearly aren't on my facebook. If I like you, this can be remedied) and I live in the bottom floor/basement. It could be better, but without us here, my mom and grandmother wouldn't be able to stay here. I'm a much different person in a lot of ways. I'm much less conflicted. I think this could be a lot of self work I've been doing...or maybe that I've had a stable job now for over a year with a company I enjoy, and hope I can get promoted at. =) It's done wonders to be able to support my family. :P Still though as a part of being stable and my particular job, I've become a better communicator, and along with my wife, both of us are working to be better people than what we were.

I will always have some work to do. I think right now, the big one for me is getting out and having a community. It is rare that I do things with other people that are not quasi work events. I work out with my wife 1 to 2x a week, that's it. Tonight I got to hang out with Darryl and a bunch of people that are gamers/extended family and I realize how much fun it is to just hang out with a bunch of like minded intelligent OPEN people. (seriously, when was the last time you had an open and honest conversation about BDSM nudist communities - why do we still call them colonies, anyways? - in a Chinese restaurant...) If only Lisa didn't get a migraine because she's still struggling with managing her newly discovered diabetes and I wasn't still in the middle of this nasty f* headcold. She gets out more than me, and I admit, she's more social but still. She has her spirituality classes, and she 'goes out with the girls' to do pampered chef parties, sewing stuff, candle stuff, etc...I need to find some hobbies that are outside my computer and that actually involve a good group of people. I've been pondering trying to find a maker faire, it seems pretty up my ally. =)

Ah well, I'm sure in 2 years I'll post again and I can see what's changed since then. And between now and then, I'll learn to use paragraphs appropriately in my LJ (hahahahaha).

I could go back to dream posting - I did actually derive some benefit from that. This morning, for example, I was discussing a dream element of mine that involves stairs (stairs in my dreams are...ominous). Not sure if it was my dream or not. Probably not, I don't dream very much - my wife i s much more active in that regard.
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Randomness.
Current Mood: apathetic apathetic


The very brief explanation that appears around 30s in, you may want to pause to read. A) that's a hell of a course, b) that's a lot of driving skill and c) that's a heck of a car. Many pairs of tires were killed to bring you this video.

And onward: I took some pictures last night, or attempted to, of a really big spiderweb that has been gracing our front porch for the better part of a month now. Apparently the spider thinks we bring in good food, I dunno. It's hard to get pictures of a web, it really is. I got one where the web is all shimmery, though. It's times like these I wish I knew more about photography. If people really want, I can upload.

Add it to my list of thing I can learn someday when I have money. More pressingly, I'd spend that money on getting various certificates that tell people I have a clue. Still looking for full time work. Just got done with a contract job. Worried about that'll happen if I don't find something soon, but I've been worried now for 2 years running and somehow yet still haven't hit the end of the wall. We won't even talk about the 'family' money situation. /sigh

I've gotten a few emails/queries about 'hey where are you' and to those I mostly haven't replied. I'm in a bad place right now and don't really know how to come out of it. I spend nearly all my time looking for a job, playing WoW when my eyes aren bleeding from the prior, and every now and again I go outside to remind myself why I am bothering. :)
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Loot-hor.
Right now, if you meet some prerequisites, you can give out free fuzzy dice vgifts.

I want one. :) I don't know who to give mine yet to, but I'll do trades!
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Dreaming.
Current Mood: complacent complacent
I was wandering around with Lisa (but I felt younger, like 21'ish), and there was a sermon going on in a gym auditorium (think your average small highschool gym). We came in, interrupted the sermon with a slam of the door. The preacher guy kept on going. I don't know what words he was saying. It ended shortly after, and we came up to talk to the preacher. There was another person who had listened to the sermon who said something like, 'No offense, but you ruined the mood for me.' or something like that, but with swear words. The preacher didn't seem to mind. We all left.

Now we're wandering some more through an alley type environment and there was some reason I threw a ball. It hit the frame of a second story window (there was no glass in the window) and the whole thing fell down brick and all. The same guy from the sermon poked his head out and was all, 'you again, god damn' blah blah. But then I said, 'I'll take care of it man, let me give you my info, we'll even get you some glass.' and then all of a sudden he was all smiles and invited us in.

Then I woke up.
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Good bookery.
Current Mood: content content
Current Location: Home
I haven't used this space publicly in a while, mostly because I haven't had a lot of things I want to talk about publicly. My life is mostly a train wreck, if you're curious. I had a job, was fired, am facing financial doom.

My grandfather passed away.

There are the quiet good moments of course, but in general....as my mate says, when one is fighting to survive, all else tends to be put on hold.

Anyways. Bookery.

It's been a very long time since I've picked up a book and read it one sitting. But I did just that for the past 4 hours (in which i read a 330 pg paperback). www:wake by Robert J. Sawyer. It was a fantastic read. I've never heard of the author before, but according to his bio he's been around a while and very accomplished in yonder writing world, so I shall be looking up more of his work in the near future. It was riveting sci-fi, to me, with some very interesting science thrown in and linked together in ways that make me wish I could be getting paid to do 'stuff like that'. Lots of information theory and linguistics and math that's simple to understand conceptually (though I'd wager the math behind it? not so simple) and the idea of what the world would be like to a 'blind' person transitioning to sighted...good stuff all.

Random note: each of his chapter headings had a binary string under them, as far as i can tell, the same one each time. You'd think it'd translate into something, but I can't get it to do so. String as follows below. Oddly, I couldn't find any mention of it on the intrawebs, which leads me to believe it's just some 'artistic' nonsense. But still. I am at heart a geek.

As a number it's very large (2^78), and amusingly, I don't have access to my ti85's anymore, I don't currently have a calculator on this pc capable of it, and all the converters I try online run into the fact that this number is so big. In that vein, I no longer have a space to do coding of my own, and I don't want to do it by hand. =)

All that also being said, I'm sure I'm missing some blindingly simple way to do this. :P Sometimes I miss being smart.

00011100101010100000000101111111010100000001010001010100000010111010100101010
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On the topic of new jobs and fingers.
Current Mood: frustrated frustrated
So, I wanted to finally write down some thoughts about my time with the census, my thoughts about my new position with a biomed company...maybe get in some video game time...and what do I do this morning? Cut off the tip of my left index finger because I was in a hurry and didn't use the hand guard on a mandolin. /sigh. I knew better...and now I won't ever do it again. :P

Typing is fun. I think I will save myself the agony of much more fumbling about. Bandage is huge and clunky. At least everything should grow back. This will also be fun for work....BLERGH EAT KITTY.

I am officially disappointed in myself, especially because the lady stayed home to take me to redimed instead of going out with her friends out of town...I mean, I can deal with my own dumbatitude, but inflicting it on someone else? :P

At least the cucumbers were tasty!
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And just for completeness.
Current Mood: blah blah
http://www.datamancer.net/steampunklaptop/steampunklaptop.htm

Really like the website. Really like the mod. =) Thought I'd share!
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Status Quo.
Current Mood: blah blah
I really like this particular comic.

http://www.goats.com/archive/090918.html

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The two kittens that currently reside in my home. :)
George resting on a pillow. Gemma playing with my computer.
George resting on a pillow.
Gemma playing with my computer.
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Updatey type stuffs.
Current Mood: apathetic apathetic
Things really aren't going so well for me and my family.

If I don't get a job soon, well. In the next month, I'll probably have to sell a car (or let the bank repo it) and figure out where I can live that doesn't involve a box. Internet, cellphones, credit cards, TV, and other such things will probably disappear too. Cue absolute failure feeling.

My g'pa is in a nursing home now. G'ma could no long really take care of him and he made it too hard for my mom to help him. I should visit him more often, I've only done so once. My g'ma is looking at foreclosure on the house. My mother lives in her own little bubble. At the very least she does try and help out around the house and get things done for my g'rents both legally and by cleaning, etc. I just feel she could do more by you know, actually attempting to get a job. More failure!

But in good news land:

Keep your collective hopes up for me, I had a good interview on Friday. :) I'm really hoping I can land this job, it would be fun, hard work, and have lots of room for growth professionally. Not to mention that I need the money reallyreally bad.

My computer here tried to die on me, but I casted a spell of resurrection on it and it seems happy now.

I also am trying out Trillian Astra. Not a bad little program so far, though there are things like Pidgin and Digsby? that I should try out I'm told.

Going to go finish up writing thank you for interview letters, then get my mom the digicam pics of some stuff she's trying to sell at the house for when they have to move...then maybe waste time playing WoW. Or working on my server. Maybe doing both at once for sng.
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i can do css. look ma!
Current Mood: content content
Current Location: Home
IF you happen to read my journal in my style, you may notice a change. IE8 handles CSS 'better' than previous versions, and I finally got around to fixing my link style so that it would properly render in the browser I use the most, IE8. It -should- also render properly in FF, but hell if I know.

Anyways, if you care, and it doesn't look right on your screen (it should be pretty obvious - if it's not, then yer worrying about the display issue i know is there, but is pretty minor. ;) let me know what browser you use (and a ss would be uber helpful). A good post of mine to check it on is: http://daimones.livejournal.com/142058.html.

Thanks. =)
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Scam-tastic.
Current Mood: groggy groggy
Someone tried to scam my mom/g'rents out of thousands of dollars to get me out of jail in toronto canada for drunk driving (bond money).

They tried this this morning.

I don't even have words for how bizarre the whole thing is on so many different levels.
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/yawn
Current Mood: sleepy sleepy
Why am I dreaming of Nicholai? Hai Nox.

I used to be pretty good about writing down dreams here, not so much anymore. I should get back to that.
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Etiquette and protocool.
Current Mood: contemplative contemplative
Ah C3PO. Wherefore art tho.

So I'm up to 9 recruiters now. I need to draft me a letter that says, 'Thank you. The position fits me! But at this time, I am unable. Think of me in the future for all your IT needs.' And then start replying, because I don't want to give these people the impression that I don't exist. :) I plan to ask Tina's help, she's a wizard like that. (That reminds me. My mom saw my new resume, says she needs one that spiffy. ;) It's a shame that this position can't be in Seattle. I'd run for it in a hot minute.

The phone interview - it seemed to go well. Of course as soon as it was over, I thought of things I should have said different, blah blah. It was with the general HR person. The not so general IT manager and flunkies are calling me tomorrow. HR person says that pending the results of that, I should hear something back for scheduling face to face stuff friday/monday (and they'll of course let me know if they decided to go with anyone else).

(10 recruiters). This one called. Oi vey.
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